would it kill you to breathe?

Thick as Thieves -- Dashboard Confessional

Would it kill you to breathe?
Easy only 17 miles lay between you and me
I could make it if I had to
I don't break easily
You've got my counsel, thick as thieves
If there's a crime we'll keep it secret
For there's only trace amounts left in your blood
You may be a sinner
But you may be justified

Just keep your mouth shut
Keep your guard up
I swear I'll make it right

Will it kill me to breathe
Not as easy as you think it is between you and me
I could fake it if I have to
I don't break easily
I need your counsel, thick as thieves
I have no crime to keep a secret
It was hers, it was not mine
Well I may be a sinner
But it wasn't me this time

Just keep your mouth shut
Keep your guard up
I swear I'll make it right

Listen to yourself
There is a hemorrhage in your mouth
It won't stop bleeding
Well you may be the traitor
I will hold the smoking gun
You'll get away clean
I'll keep your secrets til the grave has swallowed me
And I will never tell a tortured soul they are burning by my side
That I am a sinner
I am a savior
I am a lie

So keep your mouth shut
Keep your guard up
I swear I'll make it right

Here are some choice bits of sms I received today, coincidentally just before my Prelims.

"you are so much more of a coward that i could have ever guessed. kid, i can check the ip of taggers. adrian was totally right about you."

"you might as well know that i was planning on calling you to apologise but i saw the ip and that just determines your childishness and not worthy of my apology"

"i couldn't care less about you. honestly, i'm disappointed. first in your cowardice second in your dishonesty"

"you know pretty well yourself. i can't be bothered to entertain your hallucinations. goodbye and good riddance"

"argue? well i wasn't arguing. just throwing a clingy leech of a worm off my back"

Well, should I start with my rebuttals then?Honestly, I'm bored of arguing with a 14-year old who thinks the world of herself. In fact, I'm totally disgusted by the way she jumps to conclusions, and then gets angry with me for doing the same thing.

She acts as if she was so self righteous, but it's clear that she isn't. Who the hell is adrian anyway? And on the technical side, I've not gone near her tag board since sunday, much less the fact that after I checked what she was talking about, she doesn't even have the technical knowledge to know that most of starhub's pre-set ip addresses have the same few starting numbers, because all the computers are linked to one single main server.

And if coward is defined by not leaving a name when criticising someone, I shudder to think what happens in an autocratic state like singapore if you had to leave a name to criticise the government.

Another thing, about childishness, I guess I'm being childish by rebutting all this here, or even just rebutting it at all. But you know what? I'm beginning to wonder who was childish in the first place to come and comment about me, after telling me get out of her life. Isn't it amazing?
What's more, there comes the insults and scarcely veiled comments in my tagboard. Oh dearie me. I am so awed by her command of the english language, the fact that she can string words together to form an insult. If you can't even get past a relationship, in this case friendship, without trying to spite the other side before you go, it looks more childish than anything else I've seen.

And I'd already said earlier, and I know she'd read it. I've already given up. I'm walking away. I wonder who's the one who tries to pin stuff onto me, after I said I'm not going to give any damn about her anyway.

Not that it doesn't hurt. It still hurts inside. But really, I'm more angry than sad now. I was sad after Sunday night. Yes, it was painful. But these kind of totally spiteful comments just happen to piss me off. Retaliation is bad, I know. But I'm not going to stand there and be ridiculed by some insufferable thinks-she-knows-it-all.