would it kill you to breathe?

Thick as Thieves -- Dashboard Confessional

Would it kill you to breathe?
Easy only 17 miles lay between you and me
I could make it if I had to
I don't break easily
You've got my counsel, thick as thieves
If there's a crime we'll keep it secret
For there's only trace amounts left in your blood
You may be a sinner
But you may be justified

Just keep your mouth shut
Keep your guard up
I swear I'll make it right

Will it kill me to breathe
Not as easy as you think it is between you and me
I could fake it if I have to
I don't break easily
I need your counsel, thick as thieves
I have no crime to keep a secret
It was hers, it was not mine
Well I may be a sinner
But it wasn't me this time

Just keep your mouth shut
Keep your guard up
I swear I'll make it right

Listen to yourself
There is a hemorrhage in your mouth
It won't stop bleeding
Well you may be the traitor
I will hold the smoking gun
You'll get away clean
I'll keep your secrets til the grave has swallowed me
And I will never tell a tortured soul they are burning by my side
That I am a sinner
I am a savior
I am a lie

So keep your mouth shut
Keep your guard up
I swear I'll make it right

Well, here I am, blogging at 1.10 am. Maybe today's incidents have kept me awake, I don't know.

I'm disappointed, really. My results for the CTs should have been that much better. Of the four papers I've gotten back, I screwed up 3, and failed 1. Well, I knew I was going to fail physics anyway, so that isn't that much of a set back.

However, I'm really sad that my maths, which I put so much effort into, only scraped a pass. 32/60 is nothing to shout about, really. Maybe it was my careless mistakes. Maybe it was me just being over confident. I was so happy after the test because I thought I was going to do so well. Major disappointment there.

Another paper - History. Quite possibly my best subject. I was rather stunned when I only got a 19/30. Even more when the Essay question, which I spent 45 minutes out of the hour given to complete the paper, garnered only 7 marks upon 15, while the source based questions got me 12/15, for 15 mins of work. To top it all off, there was a comment written on the essay's front page - one of your best essays so far. Below my conclusion however was written the comments pity the steam engine was not explained sufficiently. Really, I expected somewhere like a 25 for History... though I didn't mug for the test at all. The paper was easy, but somewhere along the LORMS (level of response marking scheme), I screwed up and ended up with a L2/7.

Then for literature. Again another disappointing result. Another one of my better subjects. 15/25. I mean, 15/25? That's a pretty lousy grade. Rather, extremely lousy. I doubt that it was as much as the choice of the wrong question rather than the fact that the teacher took offence at my statements in the essay. How else could one of the lines I wrote in that essay be posted on the teacher's network as one of the bigger blunders made during a Lit test? I mean, c'mon. If you don't understand that statement which made perfect sense to people like me, Arun, and Zach, something's pretty wrong somewhere, isn't it?

Disappointment galore. I really hope that the rest of my subjects don't get worser. Especially not chem. I need that 3.6 badly.

Oh, and please don't be sad. Life sucks when one of the people closest to you are sad. And I'll do whatever I can to support you, behind you all the way. I care, you know.