I haven't blogged recently. I guess I'm guilty. Guilty of not blogging, then? Anyway before I continue, Selamat Hari Raya to all of your Muslims out there ^^

Motivation. The force that drives us to accomplish our goals, or aims, our whatever. However, from whence do we draw this motivation from? Throughout our lives, perhaps, we will find a certain person who can be your driving force - that same person would be able to affect you in many ways, to cheer you up, to depress you, to enrage you, to change you. Well, do we ever find the correct person to fit that role?

I'd much rather be self-motivated, to urge myself forward, to show others that I can be self dependent. The unflinching truth is that this will never happen. We'll always have an inspiration to draw upon, always someone who you believe you can trust, you know will always be there for you. Maybe I feel this way just because it happened to me. Maybe not.

From my point of view I have seen the stuggles of many a person attempting to life themselves out of their problems, just to clear them. In fact, more actually choose escapism, and deciding to term it as their solution. Well, I've done that before. Gaining the approval of others, and just leaving it that way without bothering to actually look deeper, is to me the clearest form of self-centerism. I've seen it happen, and really, it isn't a pretty sight. The end product is a person who thinks he is independent of others, totally capable of surviving on his own without any source of care or support. He'd reject help, throw away friends, manipulate others just to feel good that in word and action, others approve of him, and are willing to 'befriend' him. He eventually becomes 'self-confident', believing that he's the cure to the world.

Well, really. Is that what you want? On the other hand, we have the selfless people. We have the ones who care too much about others, without looking at themselves, basing all their worries and frustrations upon the comments, actions or expressions of others. These, those lacking in self-confidence, eventually try to soak up too much, rather like a sponge. Within all of that that has been absorbed, little makes sense, and the person just continues in his cycle of unhappiness. The vicious cycle.

I don't know how many out there can actually relate this to yourselves, but really. If you happen to be the self-centered person, take a look back, and revisit all the memories you had, and rethink your way of life. If you're the one lacking in self confidence, build it up, and take comments with a pinch of salt. Whatever people say might never always be true.

Remember, just strike that balance.

I'll try to understand human emotions more. One day, perhaps. Take me to the Houyhnhms. Maybe rationality is something we all need. Though I'd be much more content being the emotional creature that I am, and was supposed to be.