I'm tired. I'm tired of putting up with trying to make myself a nice person, I'm tried of trying so hard and illiciting the same responses. So what? I'm a freaking irritating bastard. Live with it. I thought that I was progressing last year, I thought that perhaps yeah, I've matured, I can live life better to an extent, stop making people pissed off at me, stop making people look at me with a bloody sneer.

Well too bad, those days are over. I'm sick and tired of trying so hard. So be it, if I'm not accepted then I shall not be accepted. I don't see a point in me trying my hardest to conform to society, to make myself feel a part of something I know now that I cannot be a part of.

I've come to terms with the fact that no matter how hard I try I'm not going to please anybody. I just irritate the shit out of everyone around me, be it the person I call my best friend, right down to a classmate I don't even talk to. Like if that is the person I'm meant to be, then by all damn rights I'll stay that way. I'm not going to be a bloody pawn of society and keep my life cooped up within the boundaries of a well liked person.

I'll screw life before it gets a chance to screw me.