this madness must stop. i shall end it. it is wrong to continue. it is morally disgusting for me, as a friend to continue to torment someone like that. i have no right. it must stop. it will. so let it be, that this is the way i get over another problem. let my life clean up before my own eyes. let me return to my idealistic life. let me return to my life before her. let me go back to be the friend that i want to be to everyone else. let me take back on my role of a happy-go-lucky person. let me return to the past where everything was pleasant. let me return to the point where i can do care for others, and not expect something in return. let me return to the time when i can look at someone without a guilty conscience.

let me be over her. this is what i say i will do. and i will do it. time will heal this wound. i'm sure of it. the scars, let them be a memory.