I feel like it never happened, like as though it was still a month ago. I'm back to playing basketball regularly again, to avoid going to the canteen, library and wherever else. It feels so surreal, so like deja vu. Truthfully, I did expect this to occur again, but then there was this ray of hope that it wouldn't. Now, its more or less the same. It doesn't hurt, not anymore, but it's just kind of weird that this is still happening, 5 months down.
I don't mean to say that I don't want this to be happening anymore, neither do I want to say that I don't want it to be happening anymore. I just don't know how to treat this (as Frederick Manning put it) "mental torment". On well, eventually it'll be over. Eventually.


"Be faithful to that which exists within yourself." - Andre Gide