Had a couple of chats with royce and leonard lately. Discussing life, our own personal issues and self-improvement. It struck me deeply that what both of them say have a lot of weight, and that's because they prove what they mean through their actions, and not by a load of hot air. And I realise that that's what I have to change about myself. Stop talking so much, and actually do it. Prove to others that I mean what I say, so they won't take me for granted and as a joker who just likes to make himself heard.

The road of self-discovery and improvement is oft paved with many stumbling blocks. I guess its time to stop angsting and emoing about these stumbling blocks and actually do something to solve them for once. Perhaps it's more than just the reflection of my own actions and how I interact with others, but rather how I should change to be a better person - how I need to cultivate the proper social skills, how I need to learn to treat girls as friends instead of alien lifeforms, how I need to tone down my noise-making ability, my ability to spew unwanted and unneeded hot air, how I need to tone down my spastic behaviour.

Beyond that, I suppose I have to improve my outlook on life. Something that needs a radical change before I become a prophet for doomsday or something. With that comes the need to change my dark moods and how I show myself to be angsty or emo or depressed all the time. How I have to achieve a compromise between keeping to myself in a corner or making so much noise people get irritated by me.

Mervyn 2.0, coming soon.